Movin on Up!

;-* I stopped working on my novel due to a severe case of writer's block. Currently, the only thing I've been able to squeeze out is some bits of poetry, all of which are less like poems and more like Ben tributary sonnet/ sagas. *sigh* I'm insane and stupid for loving this guy, huh? What the Hell is the point of it anyway? Hmm...well, let's look at the positives. Mayhaps he's completely forgotten about what I did? Mayhaps he never really hated me, he just found me irritating? Who knows? Surely there's a teeny iota of a sliver of hope. They say every cloud has a silver lining, right? Welllllll....this is just another cloud, eh? So I could easily find that silver lining. It might take a looong time, but it'd be worth it! I should go for it: be a big girl and stop jumping in pity-puddles. I need to get tough and just hang in there. One should never feel like giving in: and if they do feel like it, they shouldn't do it. I just need to stay calm and not get so frantic! That's all! I'll be O.K I just am experiencing that sad little twinge that comes with loving someone who is as hard-headed and solemn as Ben is. I'm just as stubborn and I'm pretty determined; I just have to keep pushing forward.