Yearning for a Golden Opportunity

The heart if not a place for violent visions, I know, but I would pull my eyelashes out one by one before I'd ever be talked into letting go of Ben. I'm a stubborn person: no one's going to make me give up easily. I know it SEEMS hopeless, but maybe there's a way I can get the pieces to fit together. It might require something easy, like taking out some glue and tape and patching it up together, or it might require something difficult like reshaping those pieces so that they fit. That's harder and takes a good bit longer, but I'm willing to do the impossible to get the one thing that will make me inexplicably and enchantingly happy. It's never enough and I'm not desperate to be with him, I'm just desperate to find a way to get something positive out of my efforts. I'd twist every word people say if it meant I'd finally have a shot at this guy, actually. I'm not one for scratching and clawing to get what I want, especially when I've been so rotten and don't deserve his forgiveness, let alone his affections. But I do wonder what it would be like if I did get what I wanted. It's like during the Depression: people yearned for something better SO much, and they wished for it SO hard that they got a tad irate.I'd never get ridiculously out of hand unless it looked like I absolutely had no hope otherwise. I will get him, one way or the other.