Curse You 3 Day Weekends!

My tolerance for people and other stuff has gotten alot better, but one thing that I have started to HATE is three day weekends. Why? Um, on 3 day weekends, or 3DW I have to wait forever to see Ben. Silly, I know: stupid, even. But I don't get to see him that much in school, as it is, and those like 3 minutes a day are the coolest 3 minutes of my day. Haven't worked up the nerve to say hi to him yet. Didn't I say I think he hates me? WTF would even be the point of just saying hi to him? I could smile and be really naturally nice and say hi to him like two friends who have only been friends for like 2 days and see each other in the store: no small talk, just a friendly greeting, but it wouldn't matter. Man, Ben! God! I LOVE YOU, YOU FRIGGEN JERK! YOU'RE THE MEANEST GUY I'VE EVER MET IN MY LIFE BUT I LOVE YOU! GOD! Why can you not even see that? Can't we at least be friends? Please? I'm not desperate or anything but honestly, I'm sorry if I ever did anything to you, and I wish so friggen hard that I could take every last second of it back. I'd take every nanosecond of it back if it meant you'd at least be my friend. That's all I want. T.T Really. That would make me soo happy, you don't even know